The Underdog Triumphs

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

The Icy Truth

The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely.
-Carl Jung

Sometimes people know us so well that they deliver us a truth about ourselves and it's like we just got slapped in the face with a bucket of icy water. It is suppose to wake us up and we are suppose to realize it so we can change our actions.

So why don't we?

Instead when truth is pointed out to us--and we agree with it, we feel small and vulnerable and strangely compulsed to do it more until something or someone else changes. It becomes a game of "want," "what if," or "my way."

I am one of the most self-aware people I know, ironically I even know what I keep blind to myself. And yet I make the same mistakes, tell myself the same lies, and drive myself crazy about things I can not change. I'm really good acknowledging these things, but not at accepting them.

And when I do, I hope to Learn to accept that "what is" is. (C. Smith Summer)


Blogger Cheryl said...

Wow. So, what happened hon?

4:39 PM  
Blogger Kitty Moon said...

Sometimes "the truth" is relative. Sometimes we just don't like what other's see as the truth as much as we identify with that truth personally.

My 2 cents.

11:00 AM  
Anonymous Brad said...

A passage from one of Jung's books:

"This is what Jung called 'the realization of the shadow'." ... "When an individual makes an attempt to see his shadow, he becomes aware of (and ashamed of) those qualities and impulses he denies in himself but can plainly see in other people--such things as egotism, mental laziness, and sloppiness; unreal fantasies, schemes, and plots; carelessness and cowardice; inordinate love of money and possessions--in short, all the little sins about which he might previously have told himself: 'That doesn't matter; nobody will notice it, and in any case other people do it too.'"

1:17 AM  
Anonymous Brad said...

There is a point to this Sue.

As a self-aware person with high standards you should accept yourself as a work in progress. That is, you have a Self-Improvement To-Do list (the term is a Brad exclusive), and your high standards make for a very LONG list. You seem to worry when someone draws attention to items on that list that may have been neglected. Of course you temporarily neglect some things on that list--your busy working on other ones. In the six years that I've known you, I've watched you cross a lot of shit off of that list, so its easy for me to see that you're kicking ass.

Focusing on your room for improvment will help you maintain your momentum, but don't forget to look back Sue.

1:44 AM  

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